15 Feb 2008 - In

In: $260

Obviously yesterday's out should have read $273. I lost $13 playing razz late, I thought it would be a nice change of pace because a friend had tried it to clear his mind. It didn't go too well for me and I just gave it up.

I am really at the point of feeling very ambivalent towards a lot of things. Writing in this blog is therapeutic for me, because I can release pent up emotions. But the way I feel is really that fighting for what you believe in is just a waste of time and a way to make enemies. Maybe its just better to pursue your own maximizing agenda and tell everyone else to just go away.

I'm feeling a lot of pressure, and I am going to experiment with 6 tabling all the time. 4 short hand tables, and 2 full. I need to increase my output consistently to over 3000 hands per day even though I have on average 1 hour less per day. I feel burnout coming on but I just have to get over it. Yesterday was such a waste of time day. These kind of days really scare me. Maybe I have to shoot for 4000 hands per day. I dunno.

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Song of the Day: World Shut Your Mouth by Julian Cope