viernes, 29 de febrero de 2008
Thanks Dusty
Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Rocky.
Feb 2008 - Wrap
In: $154.59, Out: $800.32
Total Hands: 131,375
Win Rate: 3.27 PTBB/100
VPIP/PFR: 16/11 (The games are just too loose to expand on this.)
Levels: NL10, NL25
Hight Points:
1) Grinding through a 60K hand sideswing, 1000 BBs deep
2) Ending the month on an alltime high $800
3) Making my standard session 6-9 tables
Low Points:
1) The 60K hand side, 1000 BB down swing, which decimated my once proud winrate (6.5 PTBBs / 100 to under 3.0) and from which I am still recovering
Goals for March:
5K+ hands per day on 15 full days, 1K+ on 3 short days (Easter vacation takes 1 week out).
FYI - Jan 2008 Wrap
In: $0.00, Out: $154.59
Total Hands: 56,608
Win Rate: 3.81 PTBB/100
VPIP/PFR: 17/12
Levels: NL2, NL5, NL10, NL25
Hight Points:
1) Hitting triple digits, $100 for the first time
2) Running roughshod over NL10 in one day to break over $200.
3) Hitting over $300 playing NL25
Low Points:
1) Hitting $1.04 on day 6
2) A very bad run just when I was leaving iPoker which reduced my bankroll to something like $15.
3) A very bad sideways run, which I am currently still in, which is now in the 25K hand range.
Goal for Februrary: 50K hands on 20 playing days
Total Hands: 56,608
Win Rate: 3.81 PTBB/100
VPIP/PFR: 17/12
Levels: NL2, NL5, NL10, NL25
Hight Points:
1) Hitting triple digits, $100 for the first time
2) Running roughshod over NL10 in one day to break over $200.
3) Hitting over $300 playing NL25
Low Points:
1) Hitting $1.04 on day 6
2) A very bad run just when I was leaving iPoker which reduced my bankroll to something like $15.
3) A very bad sideways run, which I am currently still in, which is now in the 25K hand range.
Goal for Februrary: 50K hands on 20 playing days
Feb 2008 - Out
Out: $800
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I haven't been running that well lately, winning only 39% and 43% of my sessions the last two days. But I've been lucky to be unlucky vs. the short stacks. I also had my first $50 FPP bonus on Stars, so I end the month on an up note. 130K hands. I will post a qwest summary over the weekend.
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I haven't been running that well lately, winning only 39% and 43% of my sessions the last two days. But I've been lucky to be unlucky vs. the short stacks. I also had my first $50 FPP bonus on Stars, so I end the month on an up note. 130K hands. I will post a qwest summary over the weekend.
jueves, 28 de febrero de 2008
28 Feb 2008 - Out
Out: $727
Hit 5.8K hands today while running well in the AM and break-even the rest of the day. Getting a bit tired and not playing as well as I wanted late, so giving it up to get some rest. NL50, once a distant dream, is only 6 buyins away (I all but have 5000 FPPs, so really, the new limit is only 4 buyins away counting the $50 bonus I can buy)....
Hit 5.8K hands today while running well in the AM and break-even the rest of the day. Getting a bit tired and not playing as well as I wanted late, so giving it up to get some rest. NL50, once a distant dream, is only 6 buyins away (I all but have 5000 FPPs, so really, the new limit is only 4 buyins away counting the $50 bonus I can buy)....
miércoles, 27 de febrero de 2008
28 Feb 2008 - In
In: $624
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Running up 9 buyins at a new higher level is nice, so is a 320BB pot from a guy who couldn't let go of top pair. Ya gotta enjoy the good timz, cuz they are few and far between sometimes.
If I can manager 1700 FPPs in 2 days I could get to Gold status. However, I don't think that's going to happen. At NL25 I am maybe 500-600 a day, so it looks like I will fall short. Next month for sure, though.
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Song of the Day: Funny Little Frog by Belle & Sebastian
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Running up 9 buyins at a new higher level is nice, so is a 320BB pot from a guy who couldn't let go of top pair. Ya gotta enjoy the good timz, cuz they are few and far between sometimes.
If I can manager 1700 FPPs in 2 days I could get to Gold status. However, I don't think that's going to happen. At NL25 I am maybe 500-600 a day, so it looks like I will fall short. Next month for sure, though.
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Song of the Day: Funny Little Frog by Belle & Sebastian
Meanwhile at the Hold'Em Bar for Degenerate Poker Hands
Meanwhile at the Hold'Em Bar For Degenerate Poker Hands...
[AQs walks by, carrying a martini...]
KTo: OMG check out that action. What I could do with that sh**...
A9o: Give it up already. In the off chance that we're actually in auniverse where she knew you existed, which I *doubt*, and in the equallyoff chance that she gave you the time of day, which I *doubt*, you wouldstack off in about 7.3 seconds, ruining any future action.
KTo: Screw off dude, check it out, Matusow's on the tube.
A9o: He rules.
[Meanwhile a few feet away...]
46o: ...and we're so happy, and we're going to get married, and...
578o: Honey, don't forget to about our *brand* *new* minivan!
46o: Oh and we have picked the sweetest minivan, its blue and has GPS, and...
578o: Honey, you are so cute when you get excited! Let me kiss your nose.Don't forget about our birthing mentor...
46o: Oh and we have a new birthing mentor, her name is Space, and she is soooo.....
77: [under her breath] Why me? Why do I always get caught listening to hersickening stories? I'm going to barf.
[Near the dancefloor...]
AKs: Care to dance?
QJTs: I doubt it.
AKs: That's not what your eyes are telling me.
QJTs: Maybe I'm a liar.
AKs: Oh I doubt it.
QJTs: What makes you so sure of yourself?
AKs: Call it instinct. I think I've got a read on you...
QJTs: I *really* doubt it.
AKs: Well at least let me buy you a drink.
QJTs: I don't drink, in fact I'm very boring.
AKs: Somehow I doubt that.
QJTs: How could you know anything at all about me?
AKs: Sometimes two hands meet and there is a connection...
Maybe we should explore it further...
QJTs: Let's just start with the drink, shall we?
AKs: Hmmm, a little teaser bet...
QJTs: You smug bastard, how do you know we'd even be compatible?
AKs: I can just tell.
QJTs: [not very convincingly] Oh I doubt it....
[Heading out the door...]
A83: So first we bungee off the Space Needle, then head to the half-pipe?
88: Totally.
K52: We can stay with some friends of mine at the beach.
55: Not...
88: You mean...
[All together] Stoshman!!!
K52: I am so totally stoked.
55: Anyone up for some granola/carrot/red bull?...
[At a table in the corner...]
TTT: So we take 35% of your portfolio and put it in gold, 25% in pork bellies and the rest in Microsoft stock.
AA: Hmmm. I like the diversification, but gold is just too risky.
TTT: I thought you might say that, so I drew up a plan B.
AA: Leave it to you. Always well prepared.
TTT: That's why I manage your weath, Sir, only the best for you.
AA: Indeed. Plan B?
TTT: Argentinean junk bonds.
AA: Love it. Very sexy. Another scotch?....
[By the phone...]
45s: My life is over. Not worth living.
KK: Hang in there my friend. You are a premium suited connector.
45s: I'm crap. The only hand I've ever loved has dumped me.
KK: No, you mean...?
45s: Yep. 678 left me. For 9T. So bloody sophisticated. So bloody handsome.I'm just the freakin' idiot end.
KK: Hang in there man, just when you think things can't get-
45s: [interrupting] What? WHAT? I'm supposed to wait around for the bottom endof a FRICKIN' WHEEL? DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE ODDS ARE I'LL EVER FIND THAT?...
[At the entrance...]
JJ: I'm going to have to see some ID.
A6: [fumbling...] ummm...
AQ3: Sorry, I think we left it at home.
A6: Yeah, it's on my nightstand.
JJ: Sorry, can't let yall in.
A6: Please?
AQ3: C'mon man, you're not that much older than us, you know how it is...
JJ: I really can't.
A6: Got a fiver for ya dude....
AQ3: Whattya say, we won't cause any trouble...
JJ: [folding to the pressure, taking the $5] OK, but if anyone asks, your IDs got stolen.
[AQs walks by, carrying a martini...]
KTo: OMG check out that action. What I could do with that sh**...
A9o: Give it up already. In the off chance that we're actually in auniverse where she knew you existed, which I *doubt*, and in the equallyoff chance that she gave you the time of day, which I *doubt*, you wouldstack off in about 7.3 seconds, ruining any future action.
KTo: Screw off dude, check it out, Matusow's on the tube.
A9o: He rules.
[Meanwhile a few feet away...]
46o: ...and we're so happy, and we're going to get married, and...
578o: Honey, don't forget to about our *brand* *new* minivan!
46o: Oh and we have picked the sweetest minivan, its blue and has GPS, and...
578o: Honey, you are so cute when you get excited! Let me kiss your nose.Don't forget about our birthing mentor...
46o: Oh and we have a new birthing mentor, her name is Space, and she is soooo.....
77: [under her breath] Why me? Why do I always get caught listening to hersickening stories? I'm going to barf.
[Near the dancefloor...]
AKs: Care to dance?
QJTs: I doubt it.
AKs: That's not what your eyes are telling me.
QJTs: Maybe I'm a liar.
AKs: Oh I doubt it.
QJTs: What makes you so sure of yourself?
AKs: Call it instinct. I think I've got a read on you...
QJTs: I *really* doubt it.
AKs: Well at least let me buy you a drink.
QJTs: I don't drink, in fact I'm very boring.
AKs: Somehow I doubt that.
QJTs: How could you know anything at all about me?
AKs: Sometimes two hands meet and there is a connection...
Maybe we should explore it further...
QJTs: Let's just start with the drink, shall we?
AKs: Hmmm, a little teaser bet...
QJTs: You smug bastard, how do you know we'd even be compatible?
AKs: I can just tell.
QJTs: [not very convincingly] Oh I doubt it....
[Heading out the door...]
A83: So first we bungee off the Space Needle, then head to the half-pipe?
88: Totally.
K52: We can stay with some friends of mine at the beach.
55: Not...
88: You mean...
[All together] Stoshman!!!
K52: I am so totally stoked.
55: Anyone up for some granola/carrot/red bull?...
[At a table in the corner...]
TTT: So we take 35% of your portfolio and put it in gold, 25% in pork bellies and the rest in Microsoft stock.
AA: Hmmm. I like the diversification, but gold is just too risky.
TTT: I thought you might say that, so I drew up a plan B.
AA: Leave it to you. Always well prepared.
TTT: That's why I manage your weath, Sir, only the best for you.
AA: Indeed. Plan B?
TTT: Argentinean junk bonds.
AA: Love it. Very sexy. Another scotch?....
[By the phone...]
45s: My life is over. Not worth living.
KK: Hang in there my friend. You are a premium suited connector.
45s: I'm crap. The only hand I've ever loved has dumped me.
KK: No, you mean...?
45s: Yep. 678 left me. For 9T. So bloody sophisticated. So bloody handsome.I'm just the freakin' idiot end.
KK: Hang in there man, just when you think things can't get-
45s: [interrupting] What? WHAT? I'm supposed to wait around for the bottom endof a FRICKIN' WHEEL? DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE ODDS ARE I'LL EVER FIND THAT?...
[At the entrance...]
JJ: I'm going to have to see some ID.
A6: [fumbling...] ummm...
AQ3: Sorry, I think we left it at home.
A6: Yeah, it's on my nightstand.
JJ: Sorry, can't let yall in.
A6: Please?
AQ3: C'mon man, you're not that much older than us, you know how it is...
JJ: I really can't.
A6: Got a fiver for ya dude....
AQ3: Whattya say, we won't cause any trouble...
JJ: [folding to the pressure, taking the $5] OK, but if anyone asks, your IDs got stolen.
martes, 26 de febrero de 2008
27 Feb 2008 - In
In: $402
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I hit my milestone of $438 and moved up to NL25, and the change was immediate. The games are more aggressive, yes, but the image I have is spastic. I don't know if its that I am running bad or not adjusting properly to the games, but I am very uncomfortable so far. Granted I have a very limited sample, but I certainly don't want to piss off what I've earned like the 2 other times I've given a shot to NL25. So today will be all about game selection, and probably no more than 6-tabling for the foreseeable future. My bailout level is $325, so about 3+ buyins away.
Song of the Day: One Tree Hill by U2
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I hit my milestone of $438 and moved up to NL25, and the change was immediate. The games are more aggressive, yes, but the image I have is spastic. I don't know if its that I am running bad or not adjusting properly to the games, but I am very uncomfortable so far. Granted I have a very limited sample, but I certainly don't want to piss off what I've earned like the 2 other times I've given a shot to NL25. So today will be all about game selection, and probably no more than 6-tabling for the foreseeable future. My bailout level is $325, so about 3+ buyins away.
Song of the Day: One Tree Hill by U2
lunes, 25 de febrero de 2008
26 Feb 2008 - In
In: $410
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I made Silver status on Stars yesterday, and had an up day.
I had a little time in the evening and played a $1 LHE and $1 5 card draw MTT. I placed in the LHE tourney for just about my combined entry fees. It seems that every time I play a MTT and get close I end up thinking "wow, that was an incredible waste of time." Draw is a strange little game with no up card information. The $438 NL25 is still iminently accessible on the nearterm horizon.
I've found that most creativity happens in periods of adversity. So since things are going OK for me right now, I don't really have any creative writing going, although I do have a couple of ideas.
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Song of the Day: I wanted to mention a couple of Spanish pop songs. I think the exoticness of a song in a different language is interesting, because if you listen to the English songs that the Spanish like, for example, you find yourself saying "yuck! that's crap." So it would be interesting to hear how a Spaniard likes the Spanish songs I like.... probably not as much since the exoticness is lost. Anyway, these are from a compilation from a couple of years ago, and are just good pop songs:
Morena Mia by Miguel Bose (the bass and the vocal impression are just wonderful), La Playa by La Oreja de Van Gogh (nice vocals and melody), Siempre by Duncan Dhu (pure pop, maybe even a wedding-type song)
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I made Silver status on Stars yesterday, and had an up day.
I had a little time in the evening and played a $1 LHE and $1 5 card draw MTT. I placed in the LHE tourney for just about my combined entry fees. It seems that every time I play a MTT and get close I end up thinking "wow, that was an incredible waste of time." Draw is a strange little game with no up card information. The $438 NL25 is still iminently accessible on the nearterm horizon.
I've found that most creativity happens in periods of adversity. So since things are going OK for me right now, I don't really have any creative writing going, although I do have a couple of ideas.
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Song of the Day: I wanted to mention a couple of Spanish pop songs. I think the exoticness of a song in a different language is interesting, because if you listen to the English songs that the Spanish like, for example, you find yourself saying "yuck! that's crap." So it would be interesting to hear how a Spaniard likes the Spanish songs I like.... probably not as much since the exoticness is lost. Anyway, these are from a compilation from a couple of years ago, and are just good pop songs:
Morena Mia by Miguel Bose (the bass and the vocal impression are just wonderful), La Playa by La Oreja de Van Gogh (nice vocals and melody), Siempre by Duncan Dhu (pure pop, maybe even a wedding-type song)
domingo, 24 de febrero de 2008
25 Feb 2008 - In
In: $358
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With 4 playing days left in February I can reasonably expect about 25K more hands, bringing my total up to about 135K. With the Semana Santa/Easter holiday next month, I am stockpiling hands (like a woodchuck bloating his cheeks).
I will almost surely hit Silver FPP status today, and start accumulating FPPs at 1.5x.
Last night was the Stox February freeroll which I bust out of in 10th/60 with AK vs. 87s.
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Song of the Day: Memphis in the Meantime by John Hiatt
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With 4 playing days left in February I can reasonably expect about 25K more hands, bringing my total up to about 135K. With the Semana Santa/Easter holiday next month, I am stockpiling hands (like a woodchuck bloating his cheeks).
I will almost surely hit Silver FPP status today, and start accumulating FPPs at 1.5x.
Last night was the Stox February freeroll which I bust out of in 10th/60 with AK vs. 87s.
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Song of the Day: Memphis in the Meantime by John Hiatt
23-24 Feb 2008 - Weekend Update
Played 2 MTTs and 1K hands Sunday.
Won a total of 1 hand in the 2 MTTs.
Stacked off to 2 x to set-over-sets and 1 x to flopped-flush-over-flopped-flush in cash play.
Down 3.5 buyins on the weekend.
This day couldn't have gone worse, well, it could have, but....
There is really no use in playing against the drunk Saturday-nighters if you are not hitting hands and hitting second best hands.
Out: $358
Song of the Weekend: Lost Weekend by Lloyd Cole & The Commotions
Won a total of 1 hand in the 2 MTTs.
Stacked off to 2 x to set-over-sets and 1 x to flopped-flush-over-flopped-flush in cash play.
Down 3.5 buyins on the weekend.
This day couldn't have gone worse, well, it could have, but....
There is really no use in playing against the drunk Saturday-nighters if you are not hitting hands and hitting second best hands.
Out: $358
Song of the Weekend: Lost Weekend by Lloyd Cole & The Commotions
viernes, 22 de febrero de 2008
22 Feb 2008 - Out
Out: $392
5K hands and another good day. I am standing at 110K hands for the qwest. $438 is the break point to move up to NL25. I should hit Silver FPP status on Monday. Have a good weekend.
5K hands and another good day. I am standing at 110K hands for the qwest. $438 is the break point to move up to NL25. I should hit Silver FPP status on Monday. Have a good weekend.
jueves, 21 de febrero de 2008
22 Feb 2008 - In
In: $338
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Great day yesterday, up 8 buyins on 5K hands. I had quads paid off (wow!). And I ran well, despite paying off quads and a better full-house (set-over-set) myself.
During the day I blew past 100K hands for the qwest, so that was definitely nice. Barring any events that would cause an interruption in play, I will easily hit silver status on Stars (FPPs). So in the next little bit I can count on the $50 bonus as I go past 5000 FPPs.
Stars does not have rakeback, but really, the game selection is just so incredible. Most other sites, like UB for example, have maybe 10 shorthand games going, whereas Stars has probably 50 or more.
One thing that is interesting is that I play during the Euro day, so I am seemingly up against a lot of (drunk?) Australians. I got on one table yesterday, and this one guy had stats of 100/0, and his aggression by streets was 11/60/71. I don't usually like to get it all-in pre-flop with JJs, but I did, and even though an A fell on the turn, I tripled up as both callers had complete junk.
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Song of the Day: Deep and Wide and Tall by Aztec Camera
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Great day yesterday, up 8 buyins on 5K hands. I had quads paid off (wow!). And I ran well, despite paying off quads and a better full-house (set-over-set) myself.
During the day I blew past 100K hands for the qwest, so that was definitely nice. Barring any events that would cause an interruption in play, I will easily hit silver status on Stars (FPPs). So in the next little bit I can count on the $50 bonus as I go past 5000 FPPs.
Stars does not have rakeback, but really, the game selection is just so incredible. Most other sites, like UB for example, have maybe 10 shorthand games going, whereas Stars has probably 50 or more.
One thing that is interesting is that I play during the Euro day, so I am seemingly up against a lot of (drunk?) Australians. I got on one table yesterday, and this one guy had stats of 100/0, and his aggression by streets was 11/60/71. I don't usually like to get it all-in pre-flop with JJs, but I did, and even though an A fell on the turn, I tripled up as both callers had complete junk.
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Song of the Day: Deep and Wide and Tall by Aztec Camera
miércoles, 20 de febrero de 2008
21 Feb 2008 - In
In: $258
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Yesterday I was up $1 total on 4.5K hands. Not so bad considering that generally it was a bad day, with me shortly going down 4.5 buyins. I grinded my way back, and it ended up a wash. I had a number of plays yesterday (not all-ins) that I would have liked to take back and reconsider. I was a bit tired and preoccupied, so I can't complain to end up where I did.
I have hit 99K hands for the qwest, and again can state that with 1-2 running good days I can probably claim that the sideswing is over, but if I dip down again.... ugh.
I will most probably hit Silver FPP status on Stars this month, but unless I run very well, won't have quite enough for the $50 bonus.
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Haiku of the day:
The coffee is cold
I am battered, I feel old
The bridge needs repair
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Song of the Day: Rain in the Summertime by The Alarm
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Yesterday I was up $1 total on 4.5K hands. Not so bad considering that generally it was a bad day, with me shortly going down 4.5 buyins. I grinded my way back, and it ended up a wash. I had a number of plays yesterday (not all-ins) that I would have liked to take back and reconsider. I was a bit tired and preoccupied, so I can't complain to end up where I did.
I have hit 99K hands for the qwest, and again can state that with 1-2 running good days I can probably claim that the sideswing is over, but if I dip down again.... ugh.
I will most probably hit Silver FPP status on Stars this month, but unless I run very well, won't have quite enough for the $50 bonus.
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Haiku of the day:
The coffee is cold
I am battered, I feel old
The bridge needs repair
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Song of the Day: Rain in the Summertime by The Alarm
martes, 19 de febrero de 2008
20 Feb 2008 - In
In: $257
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I ran well yesterday, 8.5 PTBBs/100 on a personal best of 5K hands. I am 9 tabling now, 4 short and 5 long, for 8 hours, and this is going to be my standard day. I am again at the point where, if I run well again today, I could make the claim that the sideswing is over. If not....
It was my first day logging so many hands, and I was definitely a little bit punchy towards the end. It was a good day in that I don't remember any hands that I wanted back (overtly misplayed), and I only remember 1 mental error (folding a straight in an unraised pot), so overall not so bad. I was getting a lot of action on my premiums pre-flop, and its really nice to count on pocket aces 20+ times a day. In fact, 2 days ago, when I ran bad, I was actually very lucky because at least 5-6 times I got my money in vs. a short stack and said to myself I would have liked to have more $ in the pot, only to get outdrawn or be up against a bigger hand. So I try to notice these fortunate circumstances when they occur, even though I am losing at the time.
I have found that I play much better with music in the background. I don't know why, maybe because it feels so lonely without it. I stream KCRW's Morning Becomes Eclectic and I go through it usually 3 times (it runs just under 3 hours).
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Song of the day: Anne Litt was sitting in for Nick Harcourt yesterday on MBE and she played a beautiful piece of Hawaiian guitar by Israel 'Iz' Kamakawiwo'ole called Hanohano Wale No Na Cowboy And Ka Huila Wai. I have been into this kind of thing lately, and it sounded great. I usually dont like it when Nick doesnt host the show, but this one was really good.
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I ran well yesterday, 8.5 PTBBs/100 on a personal best of 5K hands. I am 9 tabling now, 4 short and 5 long, for 8 hours, and this is going to be my standard day. I am again at the point where, if I run well again today, I could make the claim that the sideswing is over. If not....
It was my first day logging so many hands, and I was definitely a little bit punchy towards the end. It was a good day in that I don't remember any hands that I wanted back (overtly misplayed), and I only remember 1 mental error (folding a straight in an unraised pot), so overall not so bad. I was getting a lot of action on my premiums pre-flop, and its really nice to count on pocket aces 20+ times a day. In fact, 2 days ago, when I ran bad, I was actually very lucky because at least 5-6 times I got my money in vs. a short stack and said to myself I would have liked to have more $ in the pot, only to get outdrawn or be up against a bigger hand. So I try to notice these fortunate circumstances when they occur, even though I am losing at the time.
I have found that I play much better with music in the background. I don't know why, maybe because it feels so lonely without it. I stream KCRW's Morning Becomes Eclectic and I go through it usually 3 times (it runs just under 3 hours).
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Song of the day: Anne Litt was sitting in for Nick Harcourt yesterday on MBE and she played a beautiful piece of Hawaiian guitar by Israel 'Iz' Kamakawiwo'ole called Hanohano Wale No Na Cowboy And Ka Huila Wai. I have been into this kind of thing lately, and it sounded great. I usually dont like it when Nick doesnt host the show, but this one was really good.
lunes, 18 de febrero de 2008
19 Feb 2008 - In
In: $171
A bad day yesterday on 4175 hands. I have a splitting headache this morning. I watched a training video earlier. My state of mind is deteriorating, I am very depressed and I really need to make some progress soon. Its funny, you try so hard. Try to do the right thing. And people piss on you.
A bad day yesterday on 4175 hands. I have a splitting headache this morning. I watched a training video earlier. My state of mind is deteriorating, I am very depressed and I really need to make some progress soon. Its funny, you try so hard. Try to do the right thing. And people piss on you.
domingo, 17 de febrero de 2008
18 Feb 2008 - In
In: $218
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My PAHud grid is:
VP$IP / PFR / # Hands
Attempts to steal / Folds BB to steal / Folds to Cbet
Flop Agg / Turn Agg / River Agg
I use the same 9 item tic-tac-toe grid all the time to get used to seeing it.
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I am 9 tabling this week, and my goal is 4.5K+ hands / day.
I am at the point where I have not run well for a long time, and I am losing that mindset.
Kind of like expecting to flatline/lose.
To combat these feelings I have developed focusing routines using checklists for before / during / after.
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Song of the Day: No Myth by Michael Penn (acoustic guitar version, the one with the cello in it).
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My PAHud grid is:
VP$IP / PFR / # Hands
Attempts to steal / Folds BB to steal / Folds to Cbet
Flop Agg / Turn Agg / River Agg
I use the same 9 item tic-tac-toe grid all the time to get used to seeing it.
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I am 9 tabling this week, and my goal is 4.5K+ hands / day.
I am at the point where I have not run well for a long time, and I am losing that mindset.
Kind of like expecting to flatline/lose.
To combat these feelings I have developed focusing routines using checklists for before / during / after.
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Song of the Day: No Myth by Michael Penn (acoustic guitar version, the one with the cello in it).
sábado, 16 de febrero de 2008
Weekend Update
I am now targeting an additional 314.5K hands to go with my 84.5K hands to round out May with 399K hands. There are 75 playing days and 15 Sunday mornings. I am planning 67 days and 14 Sunday mornings. In June I will be moving, and if I achieve my goals, I think I will probably take a little bit of time off.
Working with some numbers, my goals are really centered around having about 525K hands by that time. Given the current parameters, I don't think I can hit that mark. Early in the run, running BBs are cheap, so I am considering depositing about $1K, which will make up the difference. This would change the concept of my run, but I think I have to think in terms of what's best in the long run.
I played a $5.xx 6 seater SnG on Stars while riding the exercise bike yesterday (left-handed on the mouse) and pulled out a 2nd even though I was just playing very straightforward.
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Album of the Weekend: Kind Of Blue by Miles Davis
Working with some numbers, my goals are really centered around having about 525K hands by that time. Given the current parameters, I don't think I can hit that mark. Early in the run, running BBs are cheap, so I am considering depositing about $1K, which will make up the difference. This would change the concept of my run, but I think I have to think in terms of what's best in the long run.
I played a $5.xx 6 seater SnG on Stars while riding the exercise bike yesterday (left-handed on the mouse) and pulled out a 2nd even though I was just playing very straightforward.
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Album of the Weekend: Kind Of Blue by Miles Davis
viernes, 15 de febrero de 2008
15 Feb 2008 - Out
Out: $235
I had another losing day, now 2 in a row. I finished up down 2.5 buyins, which isn't too bad given that I was down almost 5 with about an hour left. Things are just not going well for me. I got my $ in a ginormous pot with a set, but one of my opponents rivered a better set. Those things happen.
I have decided to redouble my efforts. I was 4-6 tabling, but now I am on 8. 4 short and 4 long. I hit 3800 hands today on half the day4 tabling and half 8 tabling. So I am going to shoot for 4500+ hands per day from now on. I think then I can target maybe 350K hands by end of may instead of 250K.
The variance is very hard to take. I was up at $350 on Jan 21st. The was the high point when the sh** hit the fan, and I was bumped all the way down to $120. So $230 isn't so bad, its just the mental thing of I've been here before, doing work I've already done yada yada yada I get so sick of my own voice.
A lot of times this isn't very enjoyable. I am still running at 6 BBs per 100, but I have lost more at the higher levels than the lower. So while I continue to screw around at the lower levels it is just an incredible amount of aggravation for the amount of money made. I am sure the higher levels will bring their own problems.
I have thought seriously about quitting this blog. I feel in a lot of ways its just a distraction. But it is therapy for me to write about it. This effort is a lot of work.
I had another losing day, now 2 in a row. I finished up down 2.5 buyins, which isn't too bad given that I was down almost 5 with about an hour left. Things are just not going well for me. I got my $ in a ginormous pot with a set, but one of my opponents rivered a better set. Those things happen.
I have decided to redouble my efforts. I was 4-6 tabling, but now I am on 8. 4 short and 4 long. I hit 3800 hands today on half the day4 tabling and half 8 tabling. So I am going to shoot for 4500+ hands per day from now on. I think then I can target maybe 350K hands by end of may instead of 250K.
The variance is very hard to take. I was up at $350 on Jan 21st. The was the high point when the sh** hit the fan, and I was bumped all the way down to $120. So $230 isn't so bad, its just the mental thing of I've been here before, doing work I've already done yada yada yada I get so sick of my own voice.
A lot of times this isn't very enjoyable. I am still running at 6 BBs per 100, but I have lost more at the higher levels than the lower. So while I continue to screw around at the lower levels it is just an incredible amount of aggravation for the amount of money made. I am sure the higher levels will bring their own problems.
I have thought seriously about quitting this blog. I feel in a lot of ways its just a distraction. But it is therapy for me to write about it. This effort is a lot of work.
Rocks
How do rocks get in your shoes? My shoes are snug around my ankes, and when I walk across a gravelly field, I get rocks in them. But when you think about it, the rock would have had to get kicked up and land in the nook between your shoe and your leg/ankle, and then work its way down. Certainly this would be detectable, but no one every notices it. Just the sting when it works its way to your heel. Plus the fact that your pant leg covers the area.
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Poker Stars is rebooting today without kicking off everyone. Great job, and nice improvement over the other day. Errr, I spoke too soon. This isn't good.
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I said something about attitude the other day, if you want a great point/counterpoint to what I mean, check out the interviews on KCRW.com of Arctic Monkeys vs. Ben Harper.
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Poker Stars is rebooting today without kicking off everyone. Great job, and nice improvement over the other day. Errr, I spoke too soon. This isn't good.
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I said something about attitude the other day, if you want a great point/counterpoint to what I mean, check out the interviews on KCRW.com of Arctic Monkeys vs. Ben Harper.
jueves, 14 de febrero de 2008
15 Feb 2008 - In
In: $260
Obviously yesterday's out should have read $273. I lost $13 playing razz late, I thought it would be a nice change of pace because a friend had tried it to clear his mind. It didn't go too well for me and I just gave it up.
I am really at the point of feeling very ambivalent towards a lot of things. Writing in this blog is therapeutic for me, because I can release pent up emotions. But the way I feel is really that fighting for what you believe in is just a waste of time and a way to make enemies. Maybe its just better to pursue your own maximizing agenda and tell everyone else to just go away.
I'm feeling a lot of pressure, and I am going to experiment with 6 tabling all the time. 4 short hand tables, and 2 full. I need to increase my output consistently to over 3000 hands per day even though I have on average 1 hour less per day. I feel burnout coming on but I just have to get over it. Yesterday was such a waste of time day. These kind of days really scare me. Maybe I have to shoot for 4000 hands per day. I dunno.
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Song of the Day: World Shut Your Mouth by Julian Cope
Obviously yesterday's out should have read $273. I lost $13 playing razz late, I thought it would be a nice change of pace because a friend had tried it to clear his mind. It didn't go too well for me and I just gave it up.
I am really at the point of feeling very ambivalent towards a lot of things. Writing in this blog is therapeutic for me, because I can release pent up emotions. But the way I feel is really that fighting for what you believe in is just a waste of time and a way to make enemies. Maybe its just better to pursue your own maximizing agenda and tell everyone else to just go away.
I'm feeling a lot of pressure, and I am going to experiment with 6 tabling all the time. 4 short hand tables, and 2 full. I need to increase my output consistently to over 3000 hands per day even though I have on average 1 hour less per day. I feel burnout coming on but I just have to get over it. Yesterday was such a waste of time day. These kind of days really scare me. Maybe I have to shoot for 4000 hands per day. I dunno.
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Song of the Day: World Shut Your Mouth by Julian Cope
14 Feb 2008 - Out
Out: $173
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Just a day where you spin your wheels all day. Up against better hands all day. Yada yada yada. Its not too bad to have an awful day and only be down 1.3 buyins.
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Just a day where you spin your wheels all day. Up against better hands all day. Yada yada yada. Its not too bad to have an awful day and only be down 1.3 buyins.
Pulling out of a sideways swing?
Here is my graph of about 80K hands, the run to date. The graph shows running BBs won. As you can see, I am potentially pulling out of a sideways run. If it sticks, it will be on the order of 50K hands and 1000 BBs. Leatherass, on the stoxpoker site, posted his first 1M hands at high stakes, and showed a 100K 30 buyin sideswing, so I suppose this make mine half-assed.
14 Feb 2008 - In
In: $286
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I happened to be on Cardrunners reading Brian Townsend's blog, the one where he is pulled over for speeding after 4 beers. Without comment directly on that, it occurs to me that many people achieve great success young in their lives, but don't really have a lot of experience.
I can point to a singer like Diana Krall, who is insanely talented, but at such a young age, her voice does not really have the, I don't know, character maybe, of an older singer. Its the way in which you approach something that shades it towards the life experiences that you have had. And frankly, when you are young, you just haven't had a great quantity of experiences.
That said, being young and being successful bears with it a certain responsibility to behave beyond your years. Look at a band like the Arctic Monkeys, who after learning their respective instruments for about 4 years, became insanely popular. Then look at their attitudes on video interviews on KCRW. Their demeanor is excusable, because they are so young. But god, what jackasses.
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Song of the day: Hey Ya by Outkast
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I happened to be on Cardrunners reading Brian Townsend's blog, the one where he is pulled over for speeding after 4 beers. Without comment directly on that, it occurs to me that many people achieve great success young in their lives, but don't really have a lot of experience.
I can point to a singer like Diana Krall, who is insanely talented, but at such a young age, her voice does not really have the, I don't know, character maybe, of an older singer. Its the way in which you approach something that shades it towards the life experiences that you have had. And frankly, when you are young, you just haven't had a great quantity of experiences.
That said, being young and being successful bears with it a certain responsibility to behave beyond your years. Look at a band like the Arctic Monkeys, who after learning their respective instruments for about 4 years, became insanely popular. Then look at their attitudes on video interviews on KCRW. Their demeanor is excusable, because they are so young. But god, what jackasses.
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Song of the day: Hey Ya by Outkast
miércoles, 13 de febrero de 2008
13 Feb 2008 - Out
Out: $286
I had a short day, just under 2K hands, but I ran well. I am recovered, at least for the moment, from my downswing, so that is good. I am also on track for the $40K, 5 month qwest.
I had a short day, just under 2K hands, but I ran well. I am recovered, at least for the moment, from my downswing, so that is good. I am also on track for the $40K, 5 month qwest.
13 Feb 2008 - In
Well, for various reasons, this is my new home for the blog.
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IN: $223
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I wanted to talk about a hand, and tell you what I decided to do and why.
You have a rag flush in a family pot, and you bet pot on the flop to charge any singleton draws the max. The villian pushes 150 BB effective stacks. You remember the villian has pushed on you not more than 10 hands ago. Your play?
In analyzing this hand, I thought that the chance of a stone bluff was about zero. If the villian has a set or a singleton (which I am assuming is always better than my rags) then he is drawing to something like 1/3 equity. If the villian has a flush with me, then I am drawing dead.The proper play depends on the conditional probability you assign to the event: given that the villian has pushed, what percent of the time does he have a flush with you?
Unfortunately this probability is impossible to calculate.
You can calculate the probability that the villian has a flush with you. But you cannot calculate the probability that he has a flush with you given that he has pushed.
So at the table, my analysis goes like this: best case, I am a 2-1 favorite, and worst case I have 0 equity. Given any reasonable percent for the villian having a flush with me, and my best case equity looks like 50%, at best. However, given that the villian has already pushed on me once recently, I am giving credence to a lesser hand.
I was deep in the shades of gray.
Here's how I broke the deadlock.
What would happen if I called and won with the most likely holding, him having one suit? I would feel, honestly, like I escaped a tornado. Shell-shocked and certainly relieved. We are 150 bbs deep and that is a lot to call off.
What would happen if I called and lost to a better flopped flush? I would feel awful. I was up for the day about the amount that was on the table, and to donk it off in such a manner would be mentally devastating.
Taking the psychological factors into consideration, I folded. In the muck I find AJ off, with the A being of the proper suit. So I folded 2/3 equity in a monster pot with the best hand. I think I made the right play given the information at hand.
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Another day at the grind NL10. I shoud hit 80K hands total for the qwest today.
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Song of the Day: Blue Eyes Crying in the Rain by Willie Nelson
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IN: $223
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I wanted to talk about a hand, and tell you what I decided to do and why.
You have a rag flush in a family pot, and you bet pot on the flop to charge any singleton draws the max. The villian pushes 150 BB effective stacks. You remember the villian has pushed on you not more than 10 hands ago. Your play?
In analyzing this hand, I thought that the chance of a stone bluff was about zero. If the villian has a set or a singleton (which I am assuming is always better than my rags) then he is drawing to something like 1/3 equity. If the villian has a flush with me, then I am drawing dead.The proper play depends on the conditional probability you assign to the event: given that the villian has pushed, what percent of the time does he have a flush with you?
Unfortunately this probability is impossible to calculate.
You can calculate the probability that the villian has a flush with you. But you cannot calculate the probability that he has a flush with you given that he has pushed.
So at the table, my analysis goes like this: best case, I am a 2-1 favorite, and worst case I have 0 equity. Given any reasonable percent for the villian having a flush with me, and my best case equity looks like 50%, at best. However, given that the villian has already pushed on me once recently, I am giving credence to a lesser hand.
I was deep in the shades of gray.
Here's how I broke the deadlock.
What would happen if I called and won with the most likely holding, him having one suit? I would feel, honestly, like I escaped a tornado. Shell-shocked and certainly relieved. We are 150 bbs deep and that is a lot to call off.
What would happen if I called and lost to a better flopped flush? I would feel awful. I was up for the day about the amount that was on the table, and to donk it off in such a manner would be mentally devastating.
Taking the psychological factors into consideration, I folded. In the muck I find AJ off, with the A being of the proper suit. So I folded 2/3 equity in a monster pot with the best hand. I think I made the right play given the information at hand.
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Another day at the grind NL10. I shoud hit 80K hands total for the qwest today.
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Song of the Day: Blue Eyes Crying in the Rain by Willie Nelson
miércoles, 6 de febrero de 2008
Feb 7
Well, I found out that I can claim a partial bonus on Eurolinx. That is good news. So I will play out the rest of the week here, then cash out. The software is just atrocious. I time out about 20 times a day, then they make me either pay a small blind or wait - even though I have not missed a blind.
I really don't know whether to consider myself lucky or unlucky. The reason is that the run I am on is awful. But for the last 3 days, I have only lost about $30 when you factor in the bonus. So that is not so bad. If I were on a site without a bonus, I would be hurting (more).
As always, I approach the day optimistic. I am looking forward to being back on Stars next week.
I really don't know whether to consider myself lucky or unlucky. The reason is that the run I am on is awful. But for the last 3 days, I have only lost about $30 when you factor in the bonus. So that is not so bad. If I were on a site without a bonus, I would be hurting (more).
As always, I approach the day optimistic. I am looking forward to being back on Stars next week.
Your Unique Trajectory Thru The Cosmos
Penny for your thoughts?
OK, its 5AM and I can't sleep, so what the hey.
I once did a simulation of flipping a coin. I kept track of the total number of heads versus the total number of tails. Of course, what I expected to see was that the total number of heads and the total number of tails would take turns being in the lead, weaving back and forth to form a graphical helix extending into infinity. That is exactly what I found and exactly what I did not find.
At first, when I looked at the results, I thought I had an error in the program. Graphs of about 1 million samples showed a strange anomoly. There would be some initial weaving, and then the heads and tails would diverge for good. How strange, thought I.
I should mention, in part, the reason I think this experiment is useful is that in many ways it simulates two otherwise equal poker players.
So anyhoo, I get more into the simulation, and let it run longer, looking specifically at the zero transition points. That is to say, the points in which we have exactly in 3 samples: a heads + balance, zero balance, a tails + balance, or vice-versa. The points when the lead changes.What I found is so ingrained upon my mind that I will never forget it. Simply stated an aggregate advantage for heads or tails can last 100s of millions of flips.This absolutely blew me away.And what is really strange is that it seems common for, after some initial posturing, the trial to resort into this kind of diversion.
But then I realized it was my preconception that was at play. I was expecting the length of time for the weaving to be, oh I don't know, something reasonable, like 100 or 200. But the average frequency of the oscillation turns out to be much higher. Much much higher.I also think a lot about hard questions.
It seems that a lot of times we are faced with not-very-clear-cut questions that are impossibly cast into shades of grey. Take for example the question that relates to two siblings: "why must you two always fight?" Notwithstanding the cottage industry of dubious self-help books and fly-by-night Oprah wannabees offering a solution to the problem I would submit that the the problem is in the question.It is malformed.A malformed question has no proper answer. 2+2=4. But what is 4? 4 is 2+2 but also 3+1 and 9-5. 4 is malformed. "Why must you two always fight?" is malformed insofar as we can cast a meta questions "What can we do to prevent you two from fighting?" that renders the original question mute. I personally think a lot of questions that thinkers and poets struggle with can be recast with a meta-question, however I won't even mention them since a lot of them touch on very sensitive subjects that a lot of people have intense feelings upon.
Why must I go through a losing streak of this breadth and width, one in which given my play is clearly inappropriate, one in which after 2 weeks and more is causing me physical symptoms?Questions like these are difficult. One reason is that good players keep emotions like these bottled up so not to expose an achilles heel to potential adversaries. Another reason is that even if they were to open up their feelings what they had to say wouldn't make much sense- it would probably sound like "variance yada yada yada variance yada yada yada."
Anyone who has studied statistics in any way knows that when results are aggregated they form a distribution. One of the most disturbing facts of a distribution is that the unluckiest man in the world is a statistical necessity, as is the luckiest.
Many people, including me, are hoping that poker will provide a career path in light of alternatives that are personally revolting. Unfortunately, this desire only acts as extra baggage to shade our play. Instead of making the open-minded cold-blooded play, we are forever shaded toward the hopeful play. Even if its just a little, its always there. I think his actions represent an overpair turns into, in some percentage or another, I think his actions represent an overpair but I hope I'm wrong.
Losing streaks can be emotionally damaging, not to mention extremely lonely times. If you need a friend, I'm sailing right behind. Like a bridge over troubled water, I will ease your mind. Do you ever notice how many beautiful things there are in the world? I have in my mind one maybe 5 second stretch of "Diamonds in the Soles of her Shoes" by Paul Simon where his voice is nothing short of angelic. I don't even want to ever hear the song again because it certainly could not live up to the image in my mind.
Well, the coffee's done and its time to put away last night's dishes.
Suerte.
OK, its 5AM and I can't sleep, so what the hey.
I once did a simulation of flipping a coin. I kept track of the total number of heads versus the total number of tails. Of course, what I expected to see was that the total number of heads and the total number of tails would take turns being in the lead, weaving back and forth to form a graphical helix extending into infinity. That is exactly what I found and exactly what I did not find.
At first, when I looked at the results, I thought I had an error in the program. Graphs of about 1 million samples showed a strange anomoly. There would be some initial weaving, and then the heads and tails would diverge for good. How strange, thought I.
I should mention, in part, the reason I think this experiment is useful is that in many ways it simulates two otherwise equal poker players.
So anyhoo, I get more into the simulation, and let it run longer, looking specifically at the zero transition points. That is to say, the points in which we have exactly in 3 samples: a heads + balance, zero balance, a tails + balance, or vice-versa. The points when the lead changes.What I found is so ingrained upon my mind that I will never forget it. Simply stated an aggregate advantage for heads or tails can last 100s of millions of flips.This absolutely blew me away.And what is really strange is that it seems common for, after some initial posturing, the trial to resort into this kind of diversion.
But then I realized it was my preconception that was at play. I was expecting the length of time for the weaving to be, oh I don't know, something reasonable, like 100 or 200. But the average frequency of the oscillation turns out to be much higher. Much much higher.I also think a lot about hard questions.
It seems that a lot of times we are faced with not-very-clear-cut questions that are impossibly cast into shades of grey. Take for example the question that relates to two siblings: "why must you two always fight?" Notwithstanding the cottage industry of dubious self-help books and fly-by-night Oprah wannabees offering a solution to the problem I would submit that the the problem is in the question.It is malformed.A malformed question has no proper answer. 2+2=4. But what is 4? 4 is 2+2 but also 3+1 and 9-5. 4 is malformed. "Why must you two always fight?" is malformed insofar as we can cast a meta questions "What can we do to prevent you two from fighting?" that renders the original question mute. I personally think a lot of questions that thinkers and poets struggle with can be recast with a meta-question, however I won't even mention them since a lot of them touch on very sensitive subjects that a lot of people have intense feelings upon.
Why must I go through a losing streak of this breadth and width, one in which given my play is clearly inappropriate, one in which after 2 weeks and more is causing me physical symptoms?Questions like these are difficult. One reason is that good players keep emotions like these bottled up so not to expose an achilles heel to potential adversaries. Another reason is that even if they were to open up their feelings what they had to say wouldn't make much sense- it would probably sound like "variance yada yada yada variance yada yada yada."
Anyone who has studied statistics in any way knows that when results are aggregated they form a distribution. One of the most disturbing facts of a distribution is that the unluckiest man in the world is a statistical necessity, as is the luckiest.
Many people, including me, are hoping that poker will provide a career path in light of alternatives that are personally revolting. Unfortunately, this desire only acts as extra baggage to shade our play. Instead of making the open-minded cold-blooded play, we are forever shaded toward the hopeful play. Even if its just a little, its always there. I think his actions represent an overpair turns into, in some percentage or another, I think his actions represent an overpair but I hope I'm wrong.
Losing streaks can be emotionally damaging, not to mention extremely lonely times. If you need a friend, I'm sailing right behind. Like a bridge over troubled water, I will ease your mind. Do you ever notice how many beautiful things there are in the world? I have in my mind one maybe 5 second stretch of "Diamonds in the Soles of her Shoes" by Paul Simon where his voice is nothing short of angelic. I don't even want to ever hear the song again because it certainly could not live up to the image in my mind.
Well, the coffee's done and its time to put away last night's dishes.
Suerte.
lunes, 4 de febrero de 2008
4 Feb 2008
Today was my first full day on Eurolinx. By and large the biggest issue is the quality of the software, which is awful. The software froze on me twice, and the screens are so poorly designed it takes about 3 seconds of focus each time your eyes switch tables to figure out where you are and what the status of the hand is. It is just mentally exhausting.
On the positive side, I found my old license for PAHud, and have it up and running. Since the Ranger realtime client does not run on Eurolinx, this is great news. On the negative side, the screens are so small, it really does make a clutter.
The players are quite a bit different also, most noticeable being the larger pre-flop bet sizes, often in the 5-8 BB range, as opposed to the standard 3.5 BBs. I think it is in a large part what Harrington calls the fear of flopping, that is to say they are afraid they won't know what to do once they miss the flop, so they overbet pre-flop, and hope to take it down then. Also apparent is a complete over-aggressive style by a lot of players. They seem to think that once you check, the pot is theirs for the bettings. Needless to say, this can be exploited.
I totalled almost 2300 hands on a slightly shortened day, running poorly, average, and finishing poorly. My sideways run has shown no signs of abating, and it is starting to really wear on me. I can hardly get upset, no matter the beat, I've just seen it all before in this swing. I am very apathetic towards the game right now, and as exampled today, I start a decent run midway through the day, only to get shot down and end the day negative. Then I have to read about other players running well, and I become even more depressed. Really, there is a chance that I am maxxed out playing NL10 and I have reached the level of my incompetance. That, in a nutshell, is what I am thinking. Great mindset.
I should total about $180 in bonus money if I can hold on for 8-9 days. The way things are going, that is a big if. I was hoping the change of scenery to Eurolinx from 'Stars would provide the impetus to kick this rut, but so far, no dice. The change has given the rut the impetus to further kick me.
In: $154
Out: $138
On the positive side, I found my old license for PAHud, and have it up and running. Since the Ranger realtime client does not run on Eurolinx, this is great news. On the negative side, the screens are so small, it really does make a clutter.
The players are quite a bit different also, most noticeable being the larger pre-flop bet sizes, often in the 5-8 BB range, as opposed to the standard 3.5 BBs. I think it is in a large part what Harrington calls the fear of flopping, that is to say they are afraid they won't know what to do once they miss the flop, so they overbet pre-flop, and hope to take it down then. Also apparent is a complete over-aggressive style by a lot of players. They seem to think that once you check, the pot is theirs for the bettings. Needless to say, this can be exploited.
I totalled almost 2300 hands on a slightly shortened day, running poorly, average, and finishing poorly. My sideways run has shown no signs of abating, and it is starting to really wear on me. I can hardly get upset, no matter the beat, I've just seen it all before in this swing. I am very apathetic towards the game right now, and as exampled today, I start a decent run midway through the day, only to get shot down and end the day negative. Then I have to read about other players running well, and I become even more depressed. Really, there is a chance that I am maxxed out playing NL10 and I have reached the level of my incompetance. That, in a nutshell, is what I am thinking. Great mindset.
I should total about $180 in bonus money if I can hold on for 8-9 days. The way things are going, that is a big if. I was hoping the change of scenery to Eurolinx from 'Stars would provide the impetus to kick this rut, but so far, no dice. The change has given the rut the impetus to further kick me.
In: $154
Out: $138
domingo, 3 de febrero de 2008
Imagine
Imagine
There's a path through time and space where one encounters
No adversity and the life experience is pure
Heaven.
It's something we all desire, the
Easy path.
If one focuses internally,
You will find that as you
Try the various strategies and tactics,
No one will emerage. It becomes a personal
Hell as we bemoan the twists and turns of fate and fall
Below the weight of the compound pressure that falls on
Us. The high road
Above
Us seems
Only populated by those whose blue
Sky rants confirm what we
Imagine, namely that for
All of our perceived effort,
The spoils of victory are reserved only for the
People for whom destiny has selected for greatness,
Living among those of us
For whom, in the end, tomorrow will be no different than
Today. I can
Imagine that
There's a better way. We are all told as children that
No one stands in our way. Its easy to forget as we see
Countries, en masse, mired in corruption, disease and despair.
It seems impossible that I am special.
Isn't it statistically impossible for me to make a difference?
Hard facts abound and
To fight logic seems an imprudent thing to
Do.
Nothing ventured, nothing lost is the cry as we seek
To not
Kill ourselves, mentally
Or physically. Our mortality snowballs as those around us
Die and we realize that
For us to propser others must sufferAnd perish.
No twisted masochist could design such a system where
Religion is the crutch of the masses,
Too unsure of their own ability to think that they cannot
Imagine an exit from
All the similar passages that appear to offer an exit from
The resression to the mean that all
People of the world are being funneled into,
Living not to die,
Life as someone else's means to an end,
In sickness and in health, fighting someone else's war for someone else's
Peace....
You and I hold the key. Come what
May I
Say that
I'm afraid. How can I live
A life as a
Dreamer of dreams when all
But my unconscious thoughts are telling me that
I'm doomed?
Not just in what I choose today, but in
The very essence of the
Only things I hold dear.
One day I will die, and with me my Hope, my dream and my aspiration.
Someday, but
I hope, not today.
You'll see me an easy target as I appear to
Join the mindless masses and enjoy that fate that will be common to all of
Us.
And in
The end the
World
Will continue to spin, the winners continue to win, everything will
Be
As it was before, less
One. It is not just that I
Imagine these things.
No one is pulling my strings. My
Possessions are as tangible as the frailty of my spirit.
I do not have time for idle speculation, I cannot
Wonder over choices.
If there was ever a time, it is now.
You
Can claim that this is the act of a desperate man
No longer in full possession of his faculties, but I assure you that I
Need to make a move,
For inactivity will render me uncredible.
Greed is as essential as love for those of this planet, live
Or die must cede to live and die. My
Hunger for
A truce with the
Brotherhood of demons that haunt me is
Of vital importance if I am to call myself a
Man. I
Imagine that of
All
The options present to me, this choice may burn many bridges.
People judging me after the fact are not
Sharing my state of mind,
All the good and all
The bad. I no longer have all the time in the
World.
You and I hold the key. Come what
May I
Say that
I'm ready. I can live
A life as a
Dreamer of dreams.
But nothing.
I'm
Not just ready to jettison the crutch, its done.
The die is cast.
Only today, only
One day.
I will die.
Hope, dreams and aspirations perpetuate on the wings of a song.
Someday I'll pray, but not today.
You'll see me
Join hands and ask that He give
Us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses as I forgive those that trespass against me.
The end is near. The
World
Will certainly pass to the cosmic dust as it was before.
Be.
As not every man lives, note well that there is nothing stopping you from being the
One.
You may say I'm a dreamer,
But I'm not the only one.
Peace. --'freq
There's a path through time and space where one encounters
No adversity and the life experience is pure
Heaven.
It's something we all desire, the
Easy path.
If one focuses internally,
You will find that as you
Try the various strategies and tactics,
No one will emerage. It becomes a personal
Hell as we bemoan the twists and turns of fate and fall
Below the weight of the compound pressure that falls on
Us. The high road
Above
Us seems
Only populated by those whose blue
Sky rants confirm what we
Imagine, namely that for
All of our perceived effort,
The spoils of victory are reserved only for the
People for whom destiny has selected for greatness,
Living among those of us
For whom, in the end, tomorrow will be no different than
Today. I can
Imagine that
There's a better way. We are all told as children that
No one stands in our way. Its easy to forget as we see
Countries, en masse, mired in corruption, disease and despair.
It seems impossible that I am special.
Isn't it statistically impossible for me to make a difference?
Hard facts abound and
To fight logic seems an imprudent thing to
Do.
Nothing ventured, nothing lost is the cry as we seek
To not
Kill ourselves, mentally
Or physically. Our mortality snowballs as those around us
Die and we realize that
For us to propser others must sufferAnd perish.
No twisted masochist could design such a system where
Religion is the crutch of the masses,
Too unsure of their own ability to think that they cannot
Imagine an exit from
All the similar passages that appear to offer an exit from
The resression to the mean that all
People of the world are being funneled into,
Living not to die,
Life as someone else's means to an end,
In sickness and in health, fighting someone else's war for someone else's
Peace....
You and I hold the key. Come what
May I
Say that
I'm afraid. How can I live
A life as a
Dreamer of dreams when all
But my unconscious thoughts are telling me that
I'm doomed?
Not just in what I choose today, but in
The very essence of the
Only things I hold dear.
One day I will die, and with me my Hope, my dream and my aspiration.
Someday, but
I hope, not today.
You'll see me an easy target as I appear to
Join the mindless masses and enjoy that fate that will be common to all of
Us.
And in
The end the
World
Will continue to spin, the winners continue to win, everything will
Be
As it was before, less
One. It is not just that I
Imagine these things.
No one is pulling my strings. My
Possessions are as tangible as the frailty of my spirit.
I do not have time for idle speculation, I cannot
Wonder over choices.
If there was ever a time, it is now.
You
Can claim that this is the act of a desperate man
No longer in full possession of his faculties, but I assure you that I
Need to make a move,
For inactivity will render me uncredible.
Greed is as essential as love for those of this planet, live
Or die must cede to live and die. My
Hunger for
A truce with the
Brotherhood of demons that haunt me is
Of vital importance if I am to call myself a
Man. I
Imagine that of
All
The options present to me, this choice may burn many bridges.
People judging me after the fact are not
Sharing my state of mind,
All the good and all
The bad. I no longer have all the time in the
World.
You and I hold the key. Come what
May I
Say that
I'm ready. I can live
A life as a
Dreamer of dreams.
But nothing.
I'm
Not just ready to jettison the crutch, its done.
The die is cast.
Only today, only
One day.
I will die.
Hope, dreams and aspirations perpetuate on the wings of a song.
Someday I'll pray, but not today.
You'll see me
Join hands and ask that He give
Us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses as I forgive those that trespass against me.
The end is near. The
World
Will certainly pass to the cosmic dust as it was before.
Be.
As not every man lives, note well that there is nothing stopping you from being the
One.
You may say I'm a dreamer,
But I'm not the only one.
Peace. --'freq
pkrqwst>
You are in a maze of twisty little passages, all alike.
There are exits leading north, west and northwest.
pkrqwst> n
You are in a maze of twisty little passages, all alike.
There are exits leading south and east.
pkrqwst> s
You are in a maze of twisty little passages, all alike.
There are exits leading north, south, east and west.
pkrqwst> w
You are in a large hall. There is a sack and a sleeping dog on the floor.
pkrqwst> pick up sack
You have picked up the sack.
pkrqwst> kick sleeping dog
You kick the sleeping dog and it vaporizes into 770 pkrqwst points.
pkrqwst> look in sack
In the sack there is a round table, 5 guffawing Frenchmen, 1 well-dressed frenchman and a deck of cards.
pkrqwst> remove table from sack
You remove the table and as it settles on the floor you notice it is covered in green felt.
pkrqwst> remove 5 guffawing Frenchmen
With what? Your bear hands?
pkrqwst> xyzzy
5 guffawing Frenchmen appear seated at the table. The continue guffawing generally unconcerned by your presence.
pkrqwst> invite well-dressed Frenchman out of the bag
He declines your invitation.
pkrqwst> plugh
A well-dressed Frenchman stands at the table, looking bored.
pkrqwst> move to table
You move to the table.
pkrqwst> say "let's play"
You say "let's play."
The 5 seated guffawing Frenchmen nod in approval.
The well-dressed Frenchman says "With what? Your bear hands?"
pkrqwst> take cards from sack
You take the cards from the sack.
pkrqwst> give cards to dealer
You give the cards to the dealer.
He says "Ante up." Everyone looks at you.
pkrqwst> ask dealer to exchange 770 pkrqwst points
The dealer gives you 1 buyin.
He deals the cards.
You have 7c 4d.
pkrqwst> check
You check and it is checked around.
The dealer flops 9sTsJs.
pkrqwst> push all-in
You push all-in and get 5 calls.
The turn is Qs and the River 2h.
You win the pot with 7 high.
The Frenchmen (all of them), the table and the cards all disappear as a golden coin falls in your lap.
pkrqwst> look
You are in a large hall.
pkrqwst> squint
There appears to be a vending machine in the far corner.
pkrqwst> go to vending machine.
You go to the vending machine.
pkrqwst> insert golden coin
With what? Your bear hands?
pkrqwst> y
You insert the golden coin.
Out comes a can of self-esteem soda.
pkrqwst> drink self-esteem
You drink the self-esteem.
You feel GREAT! YOU ARE A WINNER.
Game Over.
Would you like to play again?
There are exits leading north, west and northwest.
pkrqwst> n
You are in a maze of twisty little passages, all alike.
There are exits leading south and east.
pkrqwst> s
You are in a maze of twisty little passages, all alike.
There are exits leading north, south, east and west.
pkrqwst> w
You are in a large hall. There is a sack and a sleeping dog on the floor.
pkrqwst> pick up sack
You have picked up the sack.
pkrqwst> kick sleeping dog
You kick the sleeping dog and it vaporizes into 770 pkrqwst points.
pkrqwst> look in sack
In the sack there is a round table, 5 guffawing Frenchmen, 1 well-dressed frenchman and a deck of cards.
pkrqwst> remove table from sack
You remove the table and as it settles on the floor you notice it is covered in green felt.
pkrqwst> remove 5 guffawing Frenchmen
With what? Your bear hands?
pkrqwst> xyzzy
5 guffawing Frenchmen appear seated at the table. The continue guffawing generally unconcerned by your presence.
pkrqwst> invite well-dressed Frenchman out of the bag
He declines your invitation.
pkrqwst> plugh
A well-dressed Frenchman stands at the table, looking bored.
pkrqwst> move to table
You move to the table.
pkrqwst> say "let's play"
You say "let's play."
The 5 seated guffawing Frenchmen nod in approval.
The well-dressed Frenchman says "With what? Your bear hands?"
pkrqwst> take cards from sack
You take the cards from the sack.
pkrqwst> give cards to dealer
You give the cards to the dealer.
He says "Ante up." Everyone looks at you.
pkrqwst> ask dealer to exchange 770 pkrqwst points
The dealer gives you 1 buyin.
He deals the cards.
You have 7c 4d.
pkrqwst> check
You check and it is checked around.
The dealer flops 9sTsJs.
pkrqwst> push all-in
You push all-in and get 5 calls.
The turn is Qs and the River 2h.
You win the pot with 7 high.
The Frenchmen (all of them), the table and the cards all disappear as a golden coin falls in your lap.
pkrqwst> look
You are in a large hall.
pkrqwst> squint
There appears to be a vending machine in the far corner.
pkrqwst> go to vending machine.
You go to the vending machine.
pkrqwst> insert golden coin
With what? Your bear hands?
pkrqwst> y
You insert the golden coin.
Out comes a can of self-esteem soda.
pkrqwst> drink self-esteem
You drink the self-esteem.
You feel GREAT! YOU ARE A WINNER.
Game Over.
Would you like to play again?
Poker Air
Ladies and Gentlemen, from the flight deck this is Captain Dave, and I'd like to welcome you aboard Poker Air flight 666.
The weather ahead is mostly clear, but there are some bad patches, and we'll head directly at them. Once airborne, our cruising altitude will be 30 thousand feet. Well, actually between 24 and 36 thousand feet, with changes of flight level coming abruptly and at random. OK, in all honesty, we aren't bound by 24 and 36 thousand feet, we're just going to fly where ever we damn well please.
We are nonstop today, however the final destination is a complete unknown. Even if it were, we're only about a 55% chance to actually get there.
Here at Poker Air, you comfort is our prime concern. To this end, fully 1/3 of you will be selected for wining and dining first class, with top-notch service and a gourmet meal, after which, you will be seduced by an attractive stewardess (or steward, or both, as the cases may be) and granted entry into our Mile High Club. The other 2/3's of you will be crowded like cattle into the cargo hold, which will be filled with noxious fumes and Kenny G music.
You should probably know that I am not really a pilot, nor is any member of my flight crew.
And I am drunk.
Have a pleasant flight.
Fortune
Fortune is a 20 year old college student. She goes to school in Italy, and summers in Mallorca. No one is quite sure how she got the post, but rest assured that its in perpetuity. She has a lot of friends, and is often out; so don't bother calling - she certainly won't answer. She is particularly adept at weaving in and out of the Roman traffic on her Vespa, especially when she is off shopping, or late to a late lunch. She dances til dawn and sleeps well past noon. Her father is very rich and very famous (in that order). The wheel with which she has been entrusted to steadily guide as a seasoned Captain with a hull full of spice might, is often left upon sill of the opened window, sometimes gently swaying as if surfing upon the leading edge of a Pavarotti vibrato, and sometimes rushing with the intensity of the storm waters through the Straits of Messina, and often painfully pleasurably pulsating as if The Sirens were singing just to you.
And about your desire that a constant application of chance be applied to your existence?
She couldn't care less.
And about your desire that a constant application of chance be applied to your existence?
She couldn't care less.
Getting Started
Hello and welcome to the first entry in my blog. My concept is simple; start from absolutely zero and turn it into $10,000 playing poker. My nickname on this blog and some of the sites I play is resonantfreq, although I do play under other names on some sites.
If you are reading this first entry, the first thing you should know is that I have already started. I started on December 9, 2007. The initial phases of the run were documented on www.stoxpoker.com, under the FORUMs section, in the GENERAL tab, under the thread called "My Bankroll Building Thread."
On January 9, 2008, while still on Stoxpoker, I moved the documentation to the MEMBER'S BLOG section, where I blogged until January 31st.
Let me say that Stoxpoker is an incredible site, I am a member, I will continue to be a member, I love the site and all that it is about. However, my blog was not getting any exposure. That is why I have decided to move it here.
On December 9, 2007 I started with absolutely nothing - I had actually started playing freerolls a couple days earlier, but this was the first day I started writing about it. Later that same day I received a $7.70 no deposit bonus from Poker770. In the time since then I have ranged from nearly losing it all (on Day 6) to having well over $300 in my account (late January).
As January closed, I had about $150 in my account as I moved funds from PokerStars (which I like immensely) to Eurolinx (in order to chase a bonus). My month of Dec/Jan (which I consider my first month, since in the beginning I played few hands due to limited bankroll and the holidays) was neither good nor bad. I ran just over 3.5 PTBBs / 100 on about 56K hands. As January closed I find myself in the middle of a (now) 25K sideways run. My win rate is just fine, but certainly not extraordinary considering the stakes I played.
I usually write about:
a) The frustrations I have dealing with the twists and turns of fortune
b) My day
c) The Kelly Criterion, which is my method of managing my $
d) Fun poker topics (in general) in a creative-writing format (usually poking fun at myself)
I am going to repost a couple of my favorite things that I have written over the last month in the next couple of blog entries to get everyone up to speed on what it is like to be a resonantfreq. Additionally, tomorrow (Feb 4) will be my first day blogging here about my actual day.
Personally, I am a computer scientist living in Barcelona. I will be moving back to Denver this summer, and if I cannot accomplish my goals, then I will have to go back to work in the real world, a prospect that scares the s*** out of me.
One last thing, my goal is really $40K. But it seems a bit much to aim for. Except however, that is exactly what I am aiming for. So if this or the next couple of blog entries pique your interest, you can check out my past history on stoxpoker to come fully up to speed.
'freq out.
If you are reading this first entry, the first thing you should know is that I have already started. I started on December 9, 2007. The initial phases of the run were documented on www.stoxpoker.com, under the FORUMs section, in the GENERAL tab, under the thread called "My Bankroll Building Thread."
On January 9, 2008, while still on Stoxpoker, I moved the documentation to the MEMBER'S BLOG section, where I blogged until January 31st.
Let me say that Stoxpoker is an incredible site, I am a member, I will continue to be a member, I love the site and all that it is about. However, my blog was not getting any exposure. That is why I have decided to move it here.
On December 9, 2007 I started with absolutely nothing - I had actually started playing freerolls a couple days earlier, but this was the first day I started writing about it. Later that same day I received a $7.70 no deposit bonus from Poker770. In the time since then I have ranged from nearly losing it all (on Day 6) to having well over $300 in my account (late January).
As January closed, I had about $150 in my account as I moved funds from PokerStars (which I like immensely) to Eurolinx (in order to chase a bonus). My month of Dec/Jan (which I consider my first month, since in the beginning I played few hands due to limited bankroll and the holidays) was neither good nor bad. I ran just over 3.5 PTBBs / 100 on about 56K hands. As January closed I find myself in the middle of a (now) 25K sideways run. My win rate is just fine, but certainly not extraordinary considering the stakes I played.
I usually write about:
a) The frustrations I have dealing with the twists and turns of fortune
b) My day
c) The Kelly Criterion, which is my method of managing my $
d) Fun poker topics (in general) in a creative-writing format (usually poking fun at myself)
I am going to repost a couple of my favorite things that I have written over the last month in the next couple of blog entries to get everyone up to speed on what it is like to be a resonantfreq. Additionally, tomorrow (Feb 4) will be my first day blogging here about my actual day.
Personally, I am a computer scientist living in Barcelona. I will be moving back to Denver this summer, and if I cannot accomplish my goals, then I will have to go back to work in the real world, a prospect that scares the s*** out of me.
One last thing, my goal is really $40K. But it seems a bit much to aim for. Except however, that is exactly what I am aiming for. So if this or the next couple of blog entries pique your interest, you can check out my past history on stoxpoker to come fully up to speed.
'freq out.
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